And still I can only be true to my heart's desire. I can only live by my heart. This is the only truth, the only thing that makes sense in my life. I live to do what my heart tells me to do. Isn't the worst. Isn't the better. It's just my only, unique way to live for real, to be true to myself, even if it's for pain, even when it gives me pleasure. I just can't live any other way and be happy. I don't know how.